Photo: Daniel Dent

I’ve been walking about, sitting about, thinking about what the hell am I going to do…stewwwwing in my own blistering festering thoughts.  Why did I want to go to NY

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and what I gained from it. Thoughts of having a family, of figuring out what I am doing with my life as a woman chef overwhelms me.   FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

That’s what I put on repeat…not so good.  However, when someone asks me what I want to do I just tell me “I just want to cook”.  Now what Tina…now what?  A friend and chef alumni from Zuni Cafe, Takumi Abe bought a ticket to Japan to eat and do research just why?  He just had to do it.  Sometimes that’s the only answer.  So tell me am I on the right track?

What I shouldn’t do is refer to the unforeseeable future…I don’t know if I want to own a restaurant,  I don’t know if

I want to be a big chef, I dont know if I want to be a food stylist, I don’t know what’s going to happen to me do I? I I I I I …I do know that I just want to cook and I would like to make a living off of doing what it is that moves me.  NOT SO EASY!

Ode to Prune

There is no end at site…  I can keep driving furiously through my life with out control or it can be sort of controlled, with a destination that is not quite set.    While at Prune the Chef De Cuisine Ned, asked me about my thumb which I had painted pink.  I explained to him with a shrug that I was simply tired and bored after a long night at the other restaurant so I painted one fingernail, he said “If you keep that up while your out here then you are on top of your game.” SO why not?  I’ve had one pink thumb since I’ve been back, my ode to Prune.

Some friends that I met while in NY:

Yuri Shimojo –

Maki Kaoru –

3 thoughts on “Stew”

  1. One step at a time and it will sort itself out in time. That’s probably the best advice anyone can give. Having my own decisions to make very soon, I get it, though, the limbo and the weight of uncertainty. The hardest part for many people is figuring out what moves them, but you already know what that is.

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