You’re Gonna Change

by danggoodfood

You’re totally going to change.

In May I wrote a guest blog post on Charlotte Druckman’s Tumblr.   Charlotte is an accomplished writer/journalist living and working out in New York who regularly contributes to the WSJ.Com  and New York Times T Mag Blog.  She is also writing a book on women chef’s called  Skirt Steak: Woman Chefs on Standing the Heat & Staying in the Kitchen due out Fall, 2012 on Chronicle books.  During this time I felt ill with loss and separation from my accomplishments and felt much disappointment, but  there was also rediscovery and rebirth which I continue to do.  In response to that post there were some great chefs that contacted me and told me to keep on looking actually MOVE forward.  I needed that,  I yearned for the voice and participation of other women in my field that have stuck through it.  Here is the link (finally) to those who haven’t read it…

COOK INTERUPTED: 
“When I started to cook, my eyes were cloudy with romanticism. Here I was, finally cooking.   I was intent on learning and having a mentor.  I was super-idealistic about the evolution of a chef—what it was going to be like to button up those whites. ..”
(Click To Continue reading the post from Charlottes Blog)

During that time I kept busy and not so busy passing the time by questioning my motives.  It was too hard to try to forget that moment when I looked in the mirror with utter despair, and told myself everything was going to be okay.   The images of other chefs telling me to not give up, and with Charlotte’s help  I was able to speak to different chefs, and some allowed me into their kitchens, because this is what they do.

Happier times ahead… fruitful ones realizing that I have put just too much on my shoulders. Giving myself a bit of time to inhale and exhale.

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